Im stealing again

Not physically stealing but taking peoples quizes and things from their blogs, lol, im so bad but i suppose thats how it gets round so here it is.

26 things about me

1. Age: 23
2. Blog Title Inspiration: the road to motherhood isnt always a smooth one so i thought i would work on that.
3. Chore You Hate: I hate drying up the dishes, i just hate it i dont know why.
4. Day at the Beach or Cozy Rainy Day? day at the beach but not if its too hot as i burn but i love the sand and walking along the waters edge really does do something to you.
5. Essential Start Your Day Item: My slippers, before i go to the toilet or let the dog out i have to get some comfy slippers.
6. Favorite Color: Purple
7. Gold or Silver? colour wise silver but metal wise it has to be gold as silver leaves me with a rash but i dont like the yellow gold colour.
8. Height: 5'7''
9. Instruments You Play: I can play the piano, double bass, drums and i have a violin but not really that into it any more the novelty has worn off.
10.Job Title: Machine operator
11. Kids: Im working on it
12. Live: Dudley in the west midlands which is the uk for people who didnt know.
13. Mom's Name: deb
14. Book Currently on Your Nightstand: Essential guide to IVF
15. Nicknames: Aim, or ame however you spell it its still like 'aim fire'
16. Overnight Hospital Stays? I fainted once at a boat festival, they were going to let me go home but as i had hit my head they kept me in just incase. Then I was in a car accident and was in for 2 days it was my miracle as i was paralysed from the waist down when it happened and i started getting the feeling back the next day. My mom knew how serious it was when they started drawing on my feet and poking them with a pin and i didnt flinch as i have the most sensitive feet ever, nomatter how deep a sleep i was in if someone touched my feet i would wake up.
17. Pet Peeve: Right now its the pregnant girl at work being treated like she is dissabled its rediculous, sometimes i have seen her ask people to get her a piece of card.
18. Quote from a Movie: Forrest Gump: 'momma said life was like a box of chocolate, you never know what you gonna get'. So true.
19. Right or Left Handed? Right.
20. Siblings: Biologically i have 2 sisters & 2 brothers but if i go on the ones i have seen and spoken to regular (or at all) in the past 2 years then i have 1 brother.
21. Time You Wake Up? As i work a twilight shift i dont have to get up early so i get up when the dog gets up or when i wake up, unless i am going somewhere then i get my mom to wake me up.

22. Underwear: Right now comfy briefs.
23. Vegetable You Dislike: Broccoli and thats only because of the texture the little nobbles on the flurettes just seem wrong.
24. What Makes You Run Late: forgetting something like brushing my teeth or breaking a hairband and having to find another one.
25. Yummy Food You Make: Philidelphia taglitelli with parma ham, chicken breast stuffed with cheese wrapped in parma ham.
26. Zoo, Favorite Animal: Penguins.
 
There 26 things about me, some were pretty random but oh well it took up some time.

My appologies

I thought i had to do a post about this today as i feel a little ashamed by something i wrote a while back that may upset people when it wasn't meant to upset, i was just so mad and upset at the time.

I have been reading this blog for a while now and its only now that i am starting to understand the process of adoption and how hard the journey can be, i know the process is different in the US but the emotions and the stress are all the same. I feel ashamed to say that i had a rant on here after being told numerous times that little thing that most infertiles hate to hear, 'you should adopt', 'you can always adopt' ' there are loads of kids that people don't want, why don't you adopt them'. I was sick of hearing this. From reading the above blog i have learned that you don't just decide to adopt there are so many stages to go through and for me you have to be so strong to deal with that which I'm not. I said some pretty nasty things about this and am truly sorry to anyone that may have found them upsetting. Most of the things i post i am not bothered if people don't like them as they are normally just my openness but even i have to agree that i may have been a little bit harsh.

So again i am sorry.

is it soo bad????

Really is it so bad to have a thought to stab the girl at work square in that pregnant bump of hers????? I'm not saying i want to kill her or her child but then she would have a reason not to do anything, she was taken on at work while she was pregnant and she does nothing, she wonders round with the nastiest look on her face that i just want to knock half way back to where she came from, she is doing this knowing she can get away with walking away from her work to talk to her friends as she know nothing can be done about it, you may not remember but i did a post about a pregnancy chair, well she was all for using this chair at first but now the novelty has worn off. The other day my friend at work was sat on it as she hadn't gone to get it, and so when she found out she got her friend to get the chair, but the next day when someone else was sat on it she didn't care, because it was neither me, my mom or my friend that was sat on it. She is getting right on my last nerve, well i think she is getting on every ones last nerve, some times its like she cant even walk to pick up a piece of card she has to get someone else to do it for her, and she is always on these jobs that a 5 year old could do, but where other people have been pregnant there they have done other jobs, bigger jobs, I'm not saying to put her at risk of injury but make her work or send her home so we don't have to see her smarmy face everyday. I so wish i was pregnant at the same time because most of the jobs are no more strenuous than things you would do in everyday life so i would say i would sign a contract saying i will be held responsible if i attempt a job that i cant do and cause myself harm, which i wouldn't push myself.

Ok end of rant and just to let anyone know i am not really going to stab anyone, but in my mind wont hurt anyone.

my 2010

I have just caught up with all the amazing blogs i read and there were 97 posts, it took a while. I love to read this blog which is one of the only uk wedding blogs i could find, today i read that she had read a list of questions all about their experiences in 2010 and so i decided to steal it too, thanks lou i also voted for you too by the way if you are reading this.
1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?
In 2010 i took fertility drugs, they didnt work but i tried.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I decided in 2009 i wasnt going to make a resolution for 2010 and just go with whatever happens but for this year i decided i was going to make the most common one which is to lose weight which i have to do to be able to qualify for IVF so i think this one will be kept even if it does take a bit longer than i would like.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope, nobody i now that i am that close to did in 2010 which was a good thing as i was going through a bad year and would have probably flipped if they had.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
I wasnt that close to her but an awesome lady at work called glenis died just before the new year, early last year a girl bought in wine for her birthday and glenis had a few and we thought she had a lot more than that as she was very slurry and couldnt focus properly but she was joking about as eveyone thought she had just had one too many, on the monday she didnt come in to work, a few days later we heard she might have had a stroke, turns out she had 3 brain tumors. Her funeral was January and it was so beautiful
5. What countries did you visit?
I didnt visit anywhere last year, I decided that i was going to pay off my debt as soon as i could so i didnt take a holiday
6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
A baby would be nice
7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
3rd September because this was when i went to pick up my puppy mimi she was so small
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I know it isnt really an achievement for some but i managed to swallow pills which is something i have never been able to do.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not being able to put myself in a good enough shape to beable to get pregnant
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Just my PCOS and infertility
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My wedding dress at a saving of over £700!!!!!!! And my dog..
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Dave for standing by me through all of this infertility and having tests done.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
i cant think of anyone right now.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Paying off my debt and buying wedding stuff.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
I got so excited about being debt free, i know that may not sound so exciting to some people but to be debt free for me is so surreal as i have been in debt since college.
16. What song will always remind you of 2010?
Bruno Mars - Billionaire

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
(a) happier or sadder? Happier
(b) thinner or fatter? Thinner
(c) richer or poorer? Richer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Gone out on day trips and out for drinks or lunch with friends.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Eat!!!!

20. How did you spend Christmas?

With the family playing games and eating....a lot...

21. Did you fall in love in 2010?

Yes i did....with Mimi

22. What was your favourite TV programme?

I am so into Disney channel so sonny with a chance and also four weddings.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Ewa!!!!!!

24. What was your greatest musical discovey?

I have to agree with lou on this one it has to be Glee

25. What did you want and get?

I wanted to get my wedding dress and i got it at an awesome price too.

26. What did you want and not get?

A baby.

27. What was your favourite film of this year?

Harry potter, cant wait for part 2

28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 23 and i went to go ape for my birthday.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

The fertility drugs to have worked so that i dont have to go through major treatment.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

Plain, i dont remember much else than jeans and tops, other then shoes i remember lots of shoes lol

31. What kept you sane?

Knowing that i am going to have to start growing up if i am to go though such treatments so i had to work on who i am and what i really want.

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Johnny Depp it is, has and always will be, he is just so munchable, lol.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?

That they were thinking of axing all government funded fertility treatment, but will still treat smokers, drinkers and fatties.

34. Who did you miss?

Dunno

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010?

you really cant judge a book by its cover, just because someone looks fit and healthy that in reality they may not be and not everyone who has fertility treatment are older ladies who decided to have a career first, it can happen to young seemingly healthy couples.