A little bit from what i wrote before.

I have been looking back at my posts from the beginning and i found this post about what my plan was for when i get pregnant and thought i would post the points and see what i have stuck with and what i havnt and why.

• From 12 weeks i will start to tell people, i plan on having a shirt made with an oven on it with a bun (or more if that is the case) in it.
• I did start telling people when i thought i was 12 weeks but it turned out i wasnt quite there, i did wear a t-shirt with a bun and an oven on it to work on the last day before i broke up for xmas. I also wore a few other novely t-shirts at other points in my pregnancy.
• I don't want to know what I'm having as i really don't mind what we have as long as they are fit and healthy. (unless we do have a multiple due to the clomid but i would have to reconsider)
• I was very tempted to find out what i was having but i didnt, i felt i knew i was having a girl from the start, there was the odd time when i thought it was going to be a boy but if im 100% honest i just knew deep down.
• i would like a water birth with minimal intervention (* i will explain below)
• This was still my plan right up until i was admitted to hospital then i found out i wouldnt be allowed a water birth because of the pre-eclampsia. Then i ended up having the EMCS which ment the calm quiet stress and drug free birth turned into quite a bit of drama with drugs obviously but as long as charlotte was safe that was all that mattered. 
• after the birth and i take the baby home i will refuse to carry my baby in a car seat. (** see below)
• I stood by this one apart from once when she was having problems sleeping so i put her in the carseat and she slept through but i hated myself for doing it. I never got the adapters to put the carseat on my pram because i knew i didnt want to keep her in it so i had the carry cot and the seat and i have done really well with this point, she is not in the baby seat very much anymore, its only when she goes in adams car, my das car or a friends car, most of the time she is in my moms car so she is in her big girl seat which is a lot better seat position.
• my baby will be carried using a sling/ carrier/ wrap as much as we can. (***)
• I have carried charlotte quite a lot in her carrier but she was about 6-7 weeks old when she was big enough to go in it because she was so little i didnt feel safe carrying her, maybe if i had got a wrap i would have felt more comfortable. I still put her in the carrier sometimes but its not so often anymore as she is getting a little bit heavy for my back and my boobs get squished lol.
• my baby will be fed on breast milk. (****)
• My logic for this one was that breast mild was better for baby and i wanted to breastfeed and save money but after finding out that breastfeeding wasnt working and charlotte lost too much weight i was stressed and couldnt express so i did what i had to and put charlotte on formula.
• most of all my baby will wear cloth nappies, i have researched different brands and have heard they are as good if not better than disposable ones. (*****)
• I did try cloth nappies but i dont know if its just charlottes shape, the quality of the nappies or that i wasnt doing it right they all leaked and i just couldnt stick to it, i do wish it had worked like with the breastfeeding.
• finally my child will hate me by the age of 1 as they will have their whole life documented from first signs of a bump to videos of bump movement (if we are lucky) to having at least one photo per day to capture their lives.
• This is very true apart from the picture everyday, i get most days but not everyday, i did for the first few months and do try but i dont always get around to it. I did manage to get a few videos of my bump and i took plenty of pictures during my pregnancy.

I actually wrote this back in july 2010 while i was with my ex and after a failed cycle of clomid.

Finally my part two. What i didnt know until i had a baby.

Finally i have got around to doing this post about what i didn't know until i had a baby.

• I never knew just how much a tiny baby can fart. Its like i gave birth to a grown man the sounds i hear coming from my little girls pants its unreal.
• I never knew that all babies poop is so different. Charlotte's poop can sometimes smell really strong but on a normal day it smells like butter. I was going to make some butter popcorn one night and took it out the packet and all i could smell was butter and i could picture her poop, needless to say i didn't have the popcorn lol.
• Whatever your plan is when it comes to your birth and raising your baby it really does all go out the window. My pregnancy went amazing until the swelling started, my birth 'started' a week before i had her, i went into hospital and at first i was told i was in there till the end, then i was going to be started and then i was going home, when i was started i thought ok this is happening at least i can have somethings my own way even if i cant have the water birth but ended with EMCS then i wanted to breastfeed, that didn't happen either. I didn't want her to have a duddy, i lasted weeks then for my own sanity i had to give in. 
• How fast the babies really do grow, Charlotte is 6 months old and she is starting to babble and she can shuffle about on her back and most nights unless she is ill she sleeps through.
• I had heard that conversations will always end up about the baby but i didn't think it was true but it is, most of the time i would like a conversation to just be about me, i know this may sound selfish but im only human.
• I never knew just how competitive people were about their babies, its always, my baby put this much weight on and they are walking and talking and doing algebra its silly, just because Charlotte hasn't got her first tooth yet even thought Logan had his before Christmas that doesn't mean she isn't just as advanced or more so than he is, and when i hear my 2 week old is doing this and sleeps through and what ever then you see them and they look rough as fuck i think if your baby is sleeping through why do you look so tired.
• I never realised just what you can do with one hand/arm. In the beginning when i was trying to breast feed sometimes she would scream so much i would try to feed all the time that i would even take her into the toilet with me just so that she didn't start crying while i was taking a wee lol. I have managed to feed myself, brush my hair, go to the toilet, fed the dog all while feeding a baby whether its when i tried to BF or by bottle.