Total change.

I really have been neglecting my writing, last time I posted was that I had 5 weeks left before I go to work, well I have been at work for about 6 weeks now. I was also able to book Charlotte's christening and that was last week but I will post more about that later.

The biggest thing to happen is Adam giving up on Charlotte. Well he left in October and things were frost for a while but it was crap having an atmosphere all the time when he came to see her so we started talking again and I think he read into things more than he should because he was always talking about us and when we do this when I told him it would be a very long time before I even considered getting back together. It all came to blows when he posted something on facebook about someone hurting him by saying things about his kids, well the only person who does that is HER and she isn't going to talk about her own kids so I knew she had been talking about Charlotte so I made him tell me what she had said. She said the kids didn't want to see him on the Saturday and he said well his car was broke so he couldn't pick them up Sunday either so she decided to say it was because he was seeing the bitch and the puppy instead meaning me and Charlotte which he wasn't. Then she said so has she had the growths cut out her face yet. Now fair enough she is a bitch for saying anything like that about my baby because she doesn't have growths on her face she has birthmarks but the thing that pissed me off the most is why she knew about the birthmarks in the first place. He said it must have been when we broke up and he was talking to her it must have come out but he doesn't remember saying it. I told him I couldn't talk to him because not only did it piss me off but How did I know when the next insult to either me or Charlotte would be. He said he didn't tell her anything else but how does he know he hadn't forgot like he did about the birthmarks. The Monday after this happened we were supposed to have a meeting at church for the christening and he came and started saying about me giving up on us and that I was letting her win, I told him that she cant win against me because I'm not playing a game if he feels she has won then its because he is playing the game with her. I said I didn't think there was ever a chance of us getting back together because I would always be thinking about what I'm saying just in case he goes and tells her again and what is best for Charlotte is for me to be happy and I wont be happy still living like that. Then we had to go so he was very distant until I went home and he left. Then he messaged saying he knows I had made my mind up but not to give up on us, then after that same crap over and over he said he hopes my new bloke would understand that he would be in my life because of seeing Charlotte, Then he said maybe I would be lucky and he wouldn't be around to cause problems. I said to him if he was trying to say he wants nothing to do with her then to make sure he knows what hes saying because I will not let him keep coming and going when it suits him and screwing up her live, he said he wouldn't say it if he didn't mean it. I couldn't believe that he had gone through so much to see those other kids and spent a fortune on it and I hadn't stopped him from seeing her and he just gives up, the reason he gave up...

He cant stand to see me every time he comes to see her knowing we will never be together!!!!

What the fuck is up with that, he was always going on about a real man doesn't give up on his kids and no matter what the situation you fight for them.

I have been waiting for a letter about him taking me to court but I have all messages between us showing I have never stopped him from seeing her I have just put an end to my own misery.

Well I booked the christening and when I got the date I told Adam (this was before all the shit happened and him not wanting anything to do with her) and in less than an hour his mom says she cant go from some bullshit reason that its johns birthday on the Saturday and so he would have to take his son back to Weston the next day after a party but his mom has to go with him because he cant drive in the dark. This is from the woman who says I was blackmailing her and stopping her from seeing Charlotte when she has never made the effort to come and see her so why should I.

Well The Christening was last week and it went great, I was worried that someone would cause trouble but nothing went wrong apart from my dress had shrunk in the wash so ended up being a little bit on the short side. but I coped. I was quite happy with the fact that Adams auntie Karen came to the christening with Paul, Amie and granddad ted.

 I was going to upload some pictures but it doesn't seem to want to let me so I will do when I can X