At work and feel like crap

Well i am at work and i feel like crap. TMI ALERT!!! I started my period like 3 days ago and so i have been using my mooncup but i havnt has a period like this in so long even though the cup is comfy it feels like my womb is going to fall out. It is so heavy and uncomfortable i really dont want to be here for another hour, the cup is great but it cant really do its job when i feel like i have already emptied about a gallon of gunk since lunch time. I cant wait to get home and just sit on the toilet for however long it will take to get rid of it all, i am actually feeling a little bit sick but that may have something to do with the pizza hut i had for lunch lol. See even when i do feel like my insides are gonna fall out my but i still hav a sence of humour lol.
On to other news where i am working there is the girl who is leaving today as she is having a baby, oh my she is tiny, she is really petite and small with this tiny little bump, it is taking every ounce of energy not to go over and have a feel. As i have never really spoken to her i would think it was a little bit rude of me to do that lol. Its so cute though. I will be posting for my 30 day challenge soon as i am on my phone i dont know what is in todays and if it needs pictures i dont think i can do it till i get home.

Day 3-Your first love

When i was in school i had a few boyfriends who i thought at the time i loved. It was only when i agreed to meet up with Dave that the feelings were so intense that i realised that i felt very strongly for the other guys (who in their defence were awesome guys but it just didn't work out i was never cheated on or anything like that and i still talk to them) but the feelings were so much different this time. That's when i knew i was going to spend the rest of my life with him.

The rant of the day.

Please find above 2 pictures, the first one is of Katie Price AKA Katie Reid AKA Jordan, with her 3 children, of which are by 2 different men. The second picture is of said woman with her newest husband Alex Reid (who is not one of the kids dads) (And yes these do look like jersey shore rejects and look like the perfect parents as their relationship is on the rocks every week). For Those people who don't know who This is she was a glamour model turned attention seeker and an even cheaper version of Plastic Pam. She has been married for like less than a year and has been trying for a baby for how ever many months. a few months ago she was seen leaving a top fertility doctors practice and it was said she was taking clomid as she couldn't get pregnant, well she already has 3 kids why does she feel the need to have a kid with every guy she is with, she doesn't even look after the kids when it is her days they are looked after by a team of nannies and when she sees the chance of attention she may take them out with her. Now she is supposed to be going for IVF as her long hard struggle hasn't given them the children they want, she was reported saying she wants more children, 4 for that matter, i can see her paying some doctor a lot of money for them to transfer more embryos than is recommended so that she ends up with a high multiple, she is so much like octo-mum, she will do anything for attention. I just couldn't believe this when i read it, there are us out there who have to try every treatment going before we are accepted to try IVF and then we still have to wait, it is ridiculous. I'm don't talking about her now as I'm not going to upset myself any more. 

Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name

The meaning behind my blog name is one i thought really hard about, i realised that after a while of trying for a baby and it not working out that this was going to be a journey where i will learn so much not just about me, my partner and our lives but about other people and their struggles and success to the process of the different treatments that may come our way.

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts

Here is my second 30 day challenge.

Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts.

Right, my name is Amy and i am 23 years old, i live in Dudley which is in the UK. I currently live at home with my parents and little brother  younger brother, (i keep calling him my little brother but he is not so little any more he is taller than me). I have a puppy called Mimi, a rabbit called bob and 2 chip monks called chip and monk. I am engaged to an amazing guy and we have our wedding booked for September 2012 3 days after i turn 25. I love to read, i have done since i was very young i ready the hobbit and lord of the rings by the time i was 10 and i like to read at least one book a month but sometimes if i have a busy month or it is a very log book i wont pressure myself too much. I also love watching American shows like 18 kids and counting and just started watching a new one called 'quints by suprise' it isn't on TV over here yet but i watch it online. I also love food shows like 'diners, drive-ins and dives' and 'man vs food' i think this could be the reason i find it hard to lose weight as i love cooking.I enjoy taking my dog for a walk but hate it when she wont sit at the kerb, i think its because its too cold on her but, lol.

Here is a recent picture of me:

This is me, obviously, me and my mom did a midnight walk for the Mary Stevens hospice which my grandad has been helping with for quite a few years and they like it if people would dress up, well me being me i had to go out and get me a new costume so i decided on a bee, my mom went as a hula girl (with leggings and a tshirt underneath as it was the middle of the night and we are not that into showing our wiggly bits lol.). it was so much fun.

Now my 15 interesting facts.

1. I am ever so slightly addicted to Pepsi max, i drink it everyday.
2. I was paralysed from the waist down for 2 days when i was 18 after a car accident.
3. I keep it a secret from most of the people i know that i am infertile and am waiting for IVF (so if you are reading this and know me please don't say anything on facebook, i don't want everyone talking about me any more than they already do)
4. I am debt free!
5. I have an OCD that irritates me so much, i cant help but sing a song if just the mention of it comes up, or a TV advert, or just a saying from a movie, i just have to do it and i get annoyed with myself about it.
6. I am a very emotional person but i don't really show it.
7. I am a secret nerd, geek, swat, dork, you get the picture.
8. I have read the bible in full, (not in the right order but i don't feel this is necessary)
9. I plan on going to uni after i am married to do forensic science.
10. I wanted to do my work experience in a morgue where they make-up the dead people. but they said they couldn't just in case we were emotionally scared from it, lol.
11. My mom is my best friend.
12. I love Lillie's.
13. I enjoy working in a factory, yes i know that sounds weird but i do.
14. I haven't seen my bedroom floor so much in the past 10 years than i have in the last 2 months since getting my dog.
15. I proved the bra show wrong when i was measured for a bra. they measured me as a 40D, when i tried it on it was too big round but way to small in the cups so i went back to my usual size which is 36/38 FF/G this all depends on where i get my bras from and what style they are.

Day 30: a dream for the future

Wow i am done with this challenge already. I have found another one which i will post this list after this final day then start either tomorrow or Monday.



Day 30: a dream for the future.
My dream for the future is in most part for the next 2/3 years, i am dreaming for the successful IVF, (or the miracle of natural conception) for my wedding to be the great day i am hoping it will be and to be settling into life as a wife, mother and not quite so crazy lady lol.


Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3-Your first love
Day 4-Your parents
Day 5-Your siblings
Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7-Favorite movies
Day 8-A place you've traveled to
Day 9-A picture of your friends
Day 10-Something you're afraid of
Day 11-Favorite tv shows
Day 12-What you believe
Day 13-Goals
Day 14-A picture you love
Day 15-Bible verse
Day 16-Dream house
Day 17-Something you're looking forward to
Day 18-Something you regret
Day 19-Something you miss
Day 20-Nicknames
Day 21-Picture of yourself
Day 22-Favorite city
Day 23-Favorite vacation
Day 24-Something you've learned
Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26-Picture of your family
Day 27-Pets
Day 28-Something that stresses you out
Day 29-3 Wishes
Day 30-a picture
There are a few points on this one that will be similar to the 30 day challenge i have just finished but there are a lot of different ones too and it gets me blogging even if i don't have much to blog about.

Day 28: whats in your handbag/purse and Day 29 - hopes,dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Day 28: whats in your handbag/ purse.

Love this one as i have so much in my bag that it may take a while, lol.

My handbag is a juno cross body patent bag in electric blue. (below is a picture from google not my actual bag.)

This bag it awesome its like mary poppins bag.

• 3 hospital letters (appointment, SA info, IVF guidelines)
• a pay slip
• a cd with pictures i had printed at boots
• tum tums
• purse
• small bag with tampons (forgot to take out now i have moon cup)
• anti bacterial hand wash
• deodorant
• perfume
• eye drops
• small bottle mouth wash
• small tub face cream
• small empty tub
• concealer
• organic detoxing foundation
• breath spray
• nail file
• house keys
• half pack halls soothers
• 3 lolly pops
• bra extension
• 4 used cinema tickets (inception, sex and the city 2, the last exorcism and devil)
• 17 used bus tickets
• 4 boots weight receipts
• 7 doggy treats
• doggy poop bags

I didn't realise just how much i do have in my bag, lol, wow.

Day 29: my hopes dreams and plans for the next 365 days.

This for me is mostly focused around fertility treatment, there will be normal day to day things like spending time with my family and that sort of thing but i am trying so hard with my weight so that i am healthy for IVF, i am also trying to read as much as i can so that i know as much as possible so that there are no nasty surprises around the corner. I am debt free now so i am concentrating on paying for my wedding too which isn't in the next 365 days but if i was asked this again after the 365 days is up then i think it would be different as i am hoping and praying that and treatment we are given will work in the next 365 days and so after that i wouldn't have as much to be stressed about, but i know from statistics and other peoples blogs that the hoping and praying doesn't always come through. 

Day 27: your worst habit

Before i get on to day 27 i just need to explain about where day 26 is. well its on where, i decided with the week i have had i can hardly remember if it happened last week or 3 weeks ago and i really don't want to try to remember it all and put it on here, i know i am sort of cheating on the challenge but i have managed them all so far so i think i am allowed.

Day 27
 I would have to say my worst habit would have to be putting myself down, i cant help it i have done it for so long now that i don't realise i do it, i do it all the time. i don't think there really is any thing else i can say about this as it is quite self explanatory. My other worse habit is the exact same thing as my OCD which is bursting into song or spouting of a quote mid conversation when a word or phrase sets me off.

Just a little moan

I have just started reading another blog about a woman who has had IVF, and she came out with some really good points that i just have to write about.

• Point 1: why is it when people hear you are going to have IVF they tell you to watch out, that you may end up with 6 or 8, come on the likely hood of having that many would be so low its ridiculous.
• Point 2: why do people always think that just because you cant have kids naturally your should decide to take on the worlds unwanted children, yes OK these children need homes and parents but that's not fair really is it, its like entering a competition and the main prise is a car but you don't have a licence so they give you a bus ticket, or you want an expensive pair of jeans but don't have the money for them so you have to deal with someones hand me down primark jeggin's. I'm sorry but just because i cant think about having a baby and i become pregnant doesn't mean i should be fobbed off with someone Else's offspring.
• Point 3: don't tell me to relax and it will work, don't tell me to 'stop trying and it will happen because it wont, before i was diagnosed i was always relaxed, most of the times after i was diagnosed i was relaxed, your body doesn't sit there and say' nope I'm not going to work today because your not relaxed'. just because it happens to some people when they stop trying doesn't make that the process for everyone.
• Point 3: quit telling me 'it must be gods will' or ' wait till you are married', again if i wait till I'm married my body isn't going to say 'yes that ring is on her finger all systems are go' unless it is some sort of ring from 'lord of the rings' that has magical powers its not going to work, and if it is gods will then turn to a cancer patient and tell them its gods will for them to have cancer so stop treatment and deal with it. I'm sure you would probably be named the evilest person alive if you said that to a cancer sufferer so why do you think it is OK to do it to an infertile lady.

Right rant over for now. 

Day 25: your day in detail

Here goes (there is a few things i left out like using the bathroom and things like that as nobody really wants to know that):




I woke up this morning at about half past 8 with the dog whining to go out so i got up took her down stairs and gave her breakfast and opened the back door. i went back up to bed just for another hour as it is a Sunday, i ended up sleeping till 12:05, its OK my mom was making dinner, i was woken by the woman next door shouting over the fence saying something about a dog then my dad leaving the house and then coming back so i started to get dresses when my mom called me on the intercom (yes we have intercom phones in almost every room in the house as its better than waking the babies next door by shouting up stairs) to say my dinner was done, so me and the MR got up and went down stairs, it turns out it was my dog that had gotten into her garden, so she had to be shut inside, i sat down to have my dinner, pulled pork, stuffing, cauliflower, sprouts (yes i love my veg who'd of though) roast potatoes and gravy. Then i did the dogs dinner. Then we worked out where the dog had got through to next door it turns out she is small enough to fit through the little gaps in the wire fence then through the bush the other side. So we got a long piece of rope and linked it to her harness and tied it in the house, she really didn't like it as she couldn't go very far. Then my dad said about calling the guy to get new fence, i asked how much just the stuff would cost to do it as we have done my brothers fence before so it shouldn't be too hard but he was adamant that the hedge would have to come out but i dint see why as it in on next doors side so she can sort it. but he was having none of it. Then me and the MR watched some movies. Then we gave the dog a bath and sat in the living room drying her, she isn't allowed in the living room unless she is on the sofa as we have new carpet and my dad doesn't want 'mess' on it. Then it was time for the MR to head home so i took the opportunity to take the dog out so we walked to the bus station then back home, do you think she would sit at any road i came across on the way back, erm no i had to hold down her butt. When i got back i gave her supper and came on the net and checked my AOL email and my yahoo email, then facebook then came on here to update you guys. When i am finished this i will be copying it to stick on my other blog that i am also doing the 30 day challenge and then read all the updates from everyone. Then i will settle down and watch TV before taking the dog up to bed and go to sleep.

Weight loss page

As you can see near the top of the blog i have a new page for weight loss. When i went to my appointment on Thursday we were told there were some criteria that we had to meet to be accepted on to the waiting list for IVF. Some of the criteria are we have to have been trying for at least 3 years, we shouldn't smoke, (neither of us do or have smoked), neither of us can already have children (neither of us do), and my BMI cannot be below 19 or above 30, even if i am 0.1 over 30 then we would be turned away, so i have decided that i am going to make sure my BMI is 27 at the most as different scales can show my weight as anything up to 7lbs different in either way so if my BMI is at 27 or less this shouldn't effect the decision. Even though i have my wedding dress already if it meant i had the baby that i pray for everyday i would go out and buy a different dress if my body shape changed so much, i will be wearing my dress for one day but the baby is already my top priority, yes my dress is the dress of my dreams but the baby is at the top of my list and I'm sure a different would work just as good.

What i have learned so far

Well i decided to find out for myself as much as i can about the IVF process so that i don't get any nasty surprises when the time comes. Well i went on to the NHS website and had a look and there was a list of the medication that would be used. I initially was a little worried just in case there was alot of pills i had to take when i already was having trouble swallowing the clomid, but as i can see from the list (unless they decide to change them) all of them except the progesterone were injectables, now this may be a bit bad but at least i could get either the MR or my mom to inject them if i couldn't, its just pills i have problems with. The progesterone should be either a suppository or a vaginal gel so that's not a problem.

I am looking at the moment at a book that is by and English writer who has written a book about all the process of IVF and personal stories.

I think i may get this book as it will be a good read and the MR can read it too. I am also trying to see if there is any English bloggers out there who have been through or are going through IVF, i follow a couple of blogs by ladies in the states but the process over here is a little bit different so i would just like to know if there is anyone out their, i haven't found any just yet.

Day 24: where i live.

I live in a town called Dudley. it is in the West midlands, right in the middle of that little red bit above.

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I live in the little house right at the end of the block with the blue door. I have lived here for nearly 11 years now.


I live 5 minute walk away from the town centre which is right next to Dudley zoo and castle.

After living here all my life and seeing it from my door step its only when i see it in a picture that i realise just how lucky i am to have something like this right on my door step, it really is beautiful.



Just down the road from the zoo is the Black country living museum, i used to love going there when i was younger, it isn't like other museums they have taken old buildings and transport them to there, it is like a little town, they have an old style fish and chip shop, traditional sweets all made the same way they used to in the 1800's with the little metal presses. The people who work there are all in period clothes, its so much fun.

A short drive from my town is Merry hill shopping centre where you can get almost everything.

Then finally not too far away (about half an hour due to the heavy traffic) we have the world famous Bullring centre in Birmingham.

Like i have said, as i have lived here for all my life i don't always appreciate it but really i am quite lucky to live somewhere that has quite a lot of character

Day 23: a youtube video.

Wow this one is going to be quite good, this video will always put a smile on my face as i explained on the challenge day for website, i just didnt want to ruin it for today when i can post the video that will always put a smile on my face even after the news i got yesterday, so here it is.

YOU WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!

I had my appointment today and at first we were quite good, we ran through what will happen next while the nurse had rang for the SA results, we were told that they would give me 100mgs of clomid and take the progesterone tests to see if it works if not the up it to 150mgs then i would be put on them for 6 months if it shows i was ovulating, well the nurse comes back and there is some not so good news, the SA results are not good, the MR's little men don't have any where near enough live in the sample, then there wasn't enough mobility and of the mobile ones they were not strong enough so we were told that even if i did ovulate from the clomid then i still may not get pregnant and he also said that IUI was not really an option as this was still a low chance to success. So he said he would refer us for IVF, i was shocked, i knew this could have been an option but i didn't realise that it would be our only option, i know that a baby is one of the biggest 'wants' in my life and i would give anything to have a baby so i know i have to go through this but really!! I'm 23, the MR is also 23 we shouldn't be going through this, we are fully healthy and fit we don't smoke or drink we are not obese i just don't see why we are being tested. I am only going to get 1 free try on the NHS so if this doesn't work then i have to find out how i am going to afford the £5000 to pay for more tries. This first round as it is on the NHS we should only need to pay for the prescriptions which by looking on google that this can come to about £40 so its not too bad but when i go private the prices can reach £2000 but asda were supposed to be doing them on the cheap on a non-profit scheme where we pay what they pay which is around £1100 but that wont bee for a while. When i was looking for information on IVF on the NHS i found that the NHS try to work on the 18 week wait where they hope to have your treatment started 18 weeks after the initial referral so this could mean by the end of February we could have started the process. well its quite late so i will leave but when i get my head round all this i will let you know.

Today is the day!!

Today is the day that we have the next appointment to see if we have any results for the SA if so then depending if they are good then we might be able to re-start treatment, if its not good new then i don't know what happens, and if they don't have any results then i will be filing a formal complaint right their and then as that would be the second time they haven't tested the sample, i am trying to stay positive but it is a little hard when in the past few months it has all gone wrong. I will let you know either later today or tomorrow what the verdict is.

Day 22: a website

This would have to be between Blogger, facebook and youtube.



Blogger because i just love reading all the blogs either about TTC or wedding planning, it takes my mind off my problems even if it is for a few minutes, i would say i read up almost everyday.


Facebook because a lot of my friends have gone away to uni and some i just don't get to see so i can just stay up to date with them.


Youtube because even when i feel really down i can always find a funny video on there that brings me around.

Day 21: a recipe.

Today is a recipe but i really cant think of just one that i want to do so i am going to do a 3 course.
First course: butternut squash and pumpkin soup. (this has no measurements as it is my recipe that i made so it is done by taste)
A small pumpkin

Small butternut squash

Quarter of an onion

2 Potatoes

Half pot of single cream

Chicken stock

Salt and pepper to taste

Half the butternut squash and remover all there seeds, place both sides cut side up on a baking tray.

Section the pumpkin and remove the seeds and remove the skin, place the sections on a baking tray.

Bake both until soft.

Peel the potatoes and cut into small sections and boil till soft.

Cut the onion small then fry until they start to colour.

Cut the pumpkin and squash into small chunks and place in the chicken stock with the onions and potatoes and reduce.

Put all into a blender until smooth.

Add the cream to a pan and heat till mixed.

Add salt and pepper to taste.

Serve with crusty bread.




Second course: Thyme for chicken for 2. (again not really have measurements just trial and error)


2 Medium to large chicken breasts.

4 Slices of Italian pancetta (you can use bacon or other thin meats.)

Cheese of your choice (i have used cheddar, mozzarella or Parmesan before)

2 sprigs of thyme

Take the chicken breasts one at a time and place between cling wrap.

Bash with a rolling pin until half inch thick.

Strip the thyme from the stalk and lightly sprinkle over the chicken.

Finely grate the cheese onto the chicken.

Wrap the chicken with the pancetta (or other meat) and press.

Lightly oil a pan and fry until outer meat is crisp. (check the chicken is cooked too)

Serve with a light BBQ sauce and a baked potato or side salad.



Third course: chocolate fondant. (these measurements are to make around 4 depending on the size of ramekins.)


170g margarine

170g caster sugar

110g self raising flour

85g cooking chocolate powder

3 eggs

Sieve together the flour and chocolate powder.

Cream together the margarine and sugar into a bowl.

In a separate bowl beat the eggs.

Mix together the eggs with the margarine and sugar mix.

Add flour mix one table spoon at a time.

oil the inside of the ramekins and dust with the chocolate powder.

Divide into ramekins and place in the oven on gas mark 4 for 10 - 12 minutes.

When just firm to the touch turn them out onto a plate and serve with ice cream of your choice.

Well there is my recipes, it would be so awesome if i could go on to master chef or a show like that i have my menu planned already.

Day 20: a hobby of yours.

Well i am just about in time for today as it is 11:53pm so i have a few minutes, a hobby of mine would have to be making things. Yes i know that is very vague but i do like to make almost anything, cakes, cards, wedding projects and flower arrangements and bouquets. i took a short course in flower arranging mainly so i had some sort of in sight of what would work for my wedding flowers and since then i have made numerous bouquets for different people and occasions. I love to make cakes so much i could bake all day, big cakes, small cakes, birthday cakes well cakes for any reason. that could be part of the reason i find it harder to manage my weight lol.
So see you tomorrow.

Day 18 - my wedding/future wedding/past wedding and Day 19 - a talent of yours

Well i missed a day again but here is 2 to make up for it.

Day 18: my wedding/future wedding/past wedding.
Well this one is quite easy all i can say is it is my future wedding and almost everything you need to know about it is over at mybigdayinprep.blogspot.com this is where i have put everything down that i have so far and there will be more to come obviously, one little thing though is i am posting this 30 day challenge on there too so you will read the same thing again, apart from this as they know where to find my wedding blog lol.

Day 19: a talent of yours.
I have a few talents that are not great like playing the piano and the double bass, but i have to give the strangest one i can think of, so here goes.
When i was younger i was riding my brothers bike when someone drove a remote controlled car in front of me and i was not able to stop so i went head first over the handlebars and cut up all my face. in doing so i think i might have broken my nose as it used to have a little bump in it but now there isn't but we never found out if it was broken or not. Well since then if i wiggle my nose in a certain way i can catch the nerve and cause myself to sneeze, lol. i know why would you need to do this but it served me well when i was in high school and didn't want to go to school i could look like i had the flu or something, i still sometimes do it now if i don't want to do something i will make myself sneeze and get out of it, it doesn't always get me out of it though, lol.

Day 17: and art piece (painting, sculpture, etc).

I would have to say my favourite art piece has to be Andy Worhol with Marilyn Monroe

Day 16 part 2

As I said yesterday the 2 songs that make me cry or tear up everytime I listen to them are 'Held' and 'In better hands' by Natalie Grant. Hear is the video for 'In better hands'.



Here is the video for 'held'.

Day 16: a song that makes you cry (or nearly)

There are a couple of songs that bring me so close to tears and these are both Natalie Grant, the one is on my top 5 songs i did in this challenge that is called held then the other one is called better hands now, i will do a bit more of a post on these 2 songs tomorrow but it is late and the dog wont let me carry on so i will leave you for now. see you tomorrow.

Day 15: your dream home

I can imagine everyone wanting a huge mansion with 10's of rooms and cinemas and games rooms but what  really want is a cute little American style home with the little white fence around it. nothing too big just maybe 3 or 4 bedrooms 2 sitting rooms a reasonable size kitchen but one thing it does need is a big enough closet, lol. I know that having this house here in the UK is not going to happen but it would have to be blue too. that's just screams home to me not just a house. Below are some of the sort of house that would be my dream home.

Aaaawwwww they are just so cute, you can just imagine living in a street with a lot of houses that look similar just in different colours, the only problem is over here a house like this would have to be specially made and would probably cost anything from £300,000 to £1million, which i don't think i am going to get any time soon.

Day 14: a non-fiction book

I am going to have to go with Miley Cyrus's autobiography 'miles to go' for this one, i read this while on my way to snowdon last year and it was awesome, i only put it down when it got too dark to read and my torch ran out, i loved it, i know a lot of people were saying how could a 16 year old girl have enough life experiences to write an autobiography but as she started her career so early she has been through a lot that some of us normal folk wont have been through by the time we are in our 30's so this is the reason she is my choice for non-fiction book.

Day 13: a fiction book.

I have written about this book in one of the previous challenges and its called kissed by an angel. Below you can find the official write up of it and a cover picture. Kissed by and angel is supposed to be a trilogy but they republished into one.

In a romantic and suspenseful collection of the New York Times bestselling trilogy, love's unbreakable bonds are put to the test.
When her boyfriend, Tristan, died, Ivy thought she'd lost everything, even her faith in angels. But now she's discovered that he's her guardian angel -- his presence so strong that she can feel the touch of his hand, the beat of his heart. Ivy needs Tristan now more than ever because he knows she's in terrible danger. Only Ivy's guardian angel can save her now that his killer is after her.
But if Tristan rescues Ivy, his mission on earth will be finished, and he must leave her behind forever. Will saving Ivy mean losing her just when he's finally reached her again?

Mooncup review part 2.

I posted on Friday about the mooncup and that i was going to keep at it as it was alot better than pads/tampons, well i know it is still only like 3 days but i am still using it, it is so comfortable you don't realise its there, i haven't had any leaks yet (i did wear a liner in bed just in case on the first night but i didn't need to) and all in all i am very happy with it, normally i would have to go to the toilet so many timed day and night to change the pad as it had leaked or the tampon because it had slipped but i don't need to go any more then i would when I'm not on, it is great, it is like a tampon where you can wear it for up to 8 hours so it lasts through the night and on researching it i found that people have been using a type of cup since the 1930's and there are no known cases of people dying from toxic shock syndrome while using them so it is so safe if you forget to empty it, the most you may get is for it to be a little bit full when you do change it but now i know most people don't want to hear this but i have been known to have very heavy periods and so far in the past 3 days it has never been over half full. I think on the net it said something about it was made to carry the same amount as the whole of an average periods worth of blood, so unless it is a very heavy flow then i shouldn't think you would fill it. In conclusion i am all for it and i will not be going back to pads or tampons.

Day 12: something you are OCD about.

I have this really bad OCD of quoting, it can be movies or songs but i have to do it, i have even got to the point where i can be mid sentence and have to say my quote then carry on, my mom has grown to deal with this but things like the following are what happen:



The flash 'AAHHAA' on my camera is broken.

(while baking with my mom) MOM: you only need a spoon full, ME: of sugar helps the medicine go down.

MOM: what time are they working till today? ME: 'workin' 9 to 5' (sang in the style of the great dolly parton)

(while setting up my moms new computer) ME: plug it in plug it in. (like from the air freshener advert)

(this one is a little bit different but i cant help but saying it every time) When i hear Morrisons it always reminds me of Mario so i end up calling it marrisons then insist on doing the theme tune. yes i know but i cant help it.

While i am sat here i am finding it rather hard to think of them but like my mom has just said she cant remember them until i say them anymore as its just so common these days

Day 10: A photo taken over 10 years ago of you, and Day 11: A photo of you recently.

I am a day behind but i am doing a double post so here goes.

Day 10: a photo taken over 10 years ago of you.

This photo has got to have been from when i was about 3 or 4 so it is nearer 20 years old but its over 10 years. My mom used to get novelty knitting patterns and knit me loads of jumpers and as i love having my photo taken i was more than willing to strike a pose. I am so glad my parents had cameras when i was growing up. I am such a little poser i cant help it, lol.

Day 11: A photo of you recently.

This photo was taken about 2 months ago when i was out looking for the right tiara for my wedding, i wish my hair was longer and i was wearing some make-up but i just love my tiara, that's why i chose this picture.

The mooncup

   Right well i will start off with my little story then go on to my new buy.
Well as can bee seen on my timeline i finally had AF turn up after being over 2 weeks late at the beginning of September, well as of the beginning of this week she showed up again. I got rather frustrated as i had barely got over the last one. You see i have quite sensitive skin and so what i use pads or tampons they do irritate a little LOT...... It sometimes gets so bad its like sandpaper and i cant sit, stand or walk properly as it is so irritating, so i was looking up on getting organic sensitive pads and tampons but then i remember something i read about a while ago called the 'mooncup'. When i read about it before i thought that it would be a waste of money as i would probably just use pads/tampons as they would be easier, but yesterday i was almost in tears at how irritated i felt so i decided to check out some of the reviews for the mooncup and they were all really positive. So decided i would take the plunge and go and get one.
   Well i had to go to Boots today so i could pick up my small packet of photos, (by small packet i mean i had almost every picture i have on my facebook and hard drive printed so quite alot) so i would go and have a look at the mooncups. I found them and they were £21.99, i know this is quite a lot of money but if you think about it, i spend around £10 a month on different sanitary products (pads, tampons, soothing cream, wipes) and so a few months and it has paid for its self. A very big plus point is its says it can last around 10 year !!!!!!! just think if i was spending £10 per month that is £120 a year that is £1200 in 10 years, so i would be saving £1178 i think that is well worth it. Well when pick one there are 2 sizes, A and B, A is for AFTER you are 30 and AFTER you have had a baby, and B is for BEFORE you are 30 and BEFORE you have had a baby, this is just the easiest way to remember. the only difference is A is something like 3mm bigger then the B. Obviously as i am only 23 and have never had a baby i went for the B. In the box you get a little cloth drawstring bag with the moocup inside. the mooncup looks a little bit like an upturned bell, (see below) with a stalk on the end which you have to cut down. So far i have had it in for about 3 hours and it is nothing like a tampon, even thought you are not supposed to really feel a tampon i always can, i think that is in most part due to the sensitivity but this cup i have only really felt it when i first inserted it, there has been no leaks yet, i feel very comfortable. I will carry on using it as i need to give it a try but i cant think of any reason why i would ever go back to pads/tampons, you can wear them in bed so i will try it but i am not too convinced it will be a good idea as i do move a lot when i am asleep so we will see, i will maybe wear a pad too for tonight just to be on the safe side but i will be back with more 'news' when i have tried it for a little longer.

   

Day 9: a photo i took.

I have 2 favourite photos that i have taken that i just have to put both of them here.

This first picture looks so exotic like i had been to Asia but it was actually taking while waiting for a ride at Animal Kingdom in Florida. Me and the Mr went there in 2008 and i couldnt believe all the different things there was to take pictures of, i went like 6000 miles in one direction but came back with pictures that look like i went 6000 miles in the other direction. I just love this picture though.

The next picture is one i took at the begining of this week, the Mr had got me a huge bouquet of flowers for my birthday and they had just started to bloom so when one was fully open i had to take a picture of it, they were so beautiful. My mom saw this picture and said it looks like it could have been a proffesional picture, all this from a £100 camera.