Date night

Well we haven't had a real date night in so long but after what we have been through in the last week or so we decided it was needed. On this day 5 years ago i met they guy of my dreams and so yesterday we decided to tie that in with our date night. I decided we could go and play pool, i had never played before and so i had no idea what i was going but i tried, we both won one game each so that was good then we went over to pizza hut, where Dave had chicken wings and garlic bread and i had carbonara and one of his chicken wings then we shared a cookie dough dessert. I must admit it was one of the best nights i have had in a while. While we were eating we had a discussion about what we do about the treatment, i wanted to let Dave make the decision of when to pick it up again as i think if it was up to me i would take it all on again and end up in the same situation. Well Dave said he thinks i should try to get the situation at work sorted first which i was told they are trying to have over and done with in around a week due to the people being on 3 different shifts, then maybe see where we are in a month and see if we are in the right place to sort out the forms then, but i said right now i didn't mind if it was a month or 6 or a year just as long as things were not going down hill again.

Life on hold

I don't know how much of my life is on hold just yet but our wedding is on hold. There are some things going on at the moment that we are having to re think. I wen tot he doctors to be weighed and i have my bmi under 30 but not long after i broke down, i have no idea how i have coped in the past year or so, with the infertility then the wedding as well as everyday life and problems at work i feel like i have to be wonder woman sometimes, but i just don't have the super powers to do it all, so we had a long talk and we decided we have to take a few steps back, we are only 23/24 and we shouldn't have to deal with all of this right now especially all at once. I always thought i had to start growing up but i think i have over done myself, we made that hard decision to cancel the wedding but for how long we don't know, all we do know is we are going to lose our deposits we have already paid. Also i am not sure where we are on the IVF. I don't know when we are going to look back and decided to go ahead but we both feel if we don't sort out our lives right now and just take a step out of the hectic live then we would drive each other away, i am hoping that all this time and money that we will be saving may bring us closer, only time will tell.

I will keep you up to date with what we decide.

Im getting there

Almost every week i weigh myself in boots on their scales and get a print out, this week it says i was 13.5 which gave me a low enough BMI to fit in the IVF criteria, so i decided i was going to sort out my printouts and make an appointment to see my doctor and show them, i can imagin thet when i get there and i have to be weighed there it isnt going to say i way that much that its going to be more, but i thought i would make the appointment and tell them my situation as i am kinda getting sick of seeing my BMI less than 30 every week in boots but then still being told its not true. So i will let you know what happens on thursday.