Tomorrow is the day.

I rang the doctors on Friday to see if the results came in and she said she couldn't see any but they normally come in after 11 so she said she will check then. A few minutes later she rang back and said there are some results and the next thing was to make an appointment with the doctor, so the first appointment she had was Monday at 10 past 9, that was quite fast I think. When I asked how quick the results would come back she said as few days to a week and if they were negative then they wouldn't do anything else so I am presuming that was our confirmation. For definite we will have it tomorrow. I am presuming it is a positive as we already have positives and the symptoms so this is just an official one. I need a certificate or something like that from the doctor so I can take to work and give to Geoff so that they can have it on record. Going by my LPD I am 8 weeks today and i am feeling a bit bloated in the stomach region.

exciting new update

Well since the last time I wrote my life has changed.

      I Left my cheating fiancée and found my new partner, Adam. Things seemed to move quite quickly for us but it all seems so natural, in just over a month we had moved in and right now we have been together for 6 months. As anyone who has read my blog will know I suffer from PCOS and was trying for a baby for over 3 years with my ex with no results. When I met Adam I knew everything would be different as he already has 2 children. With this I knew on the NHS there would only be some treatments we could get for free, IUI and IVF would not be funded due to Adam having children so we had to discuss what was going to happen when the time comes that we wanted a baby of our own. There were treatments available like the clomid that we could have tried which with his history of having children we know would have given us a high rate of success if a high enough dose was given. 

      Due to the fact I hadn't been on any birth control for over 4 years and hadn't become pregnant we discussed not using any ourselves due to the fact we are healthy and for us condoms are not really a spontaneous thing really if I must be honest. So after that we didn't use anything, we did talk about having children but we wouldn't be able to get help from the doctor until we had been trying for a year so we were just getting on with life and when my period was late in October I thought nothing of it, I had missed so many before that it was nothing, but in the last about 18 months I was normally on time, so I gave it a few weeks then I did a test, it was negative. I left it a bit longer and was really not feeling great, my boobs were aching real bad, I had no bloating that I normally get when I am about to get my period, I got back ache so I decided to get some more tests. This was Saturday 6Th November so I was a fair few weeks late. We were going bowling and I thought I wanted to put my mind at ease and buy some more expensive tests, we went to asda and I got a 2 pack, when we got to Adams granddads and I needed the loo I thought why not take one there, negative, I thought,'you know what im going to enjoy my night any ways'. so we went bowling but I was so tired by like 10 but i was a trooper and stayed till 12. After that i felt tired quite often so I was having a nap in the day. It got to Friday 11th November and i had enough, i was peeing like every half hour and every time I went there was the last test sitting on the top of the toilet so i decided just to use it, get it out the way so I don't have to keep looking at it. I didn't even wait for it to be done, i just left it on the toilet and went back to watching a movie, when i went back to the toilet again i noticed it, there was a faint line on it. I didn't know if i was imagining it or not so i went in the bin to find the one i had done the week before that was a definite negative and there was a line there. I text Adam who was a work and asked him what to do, he said to ring the docs, so i rang and they said i had to take a sample in before 10 on the Monday, that was so long away so i was working myself up so before i went to my moms to go to work i went to boots and got some clearblue digital tests, if they said negative then i knew they had to be right, so i got to my moms and POAS, it said pregnant!!!!!! I have never had a positive one before so i went and asked my mom to tell me i wasn't imagining it and it was right. So all my symptoms that i was having we sort of adding up, everyday i am getting more and more things, like acid and feeling sick but not actually being sick but i welcome them and am so grateful to be in the situation. 

        I was supposed to send of the sample yesterday but when i got to the doctors to get the sample bottle and tried to pee, i couldn't, i walked home, still couldn't pee, drank water and pepsi max, couldn't pee, ran the bath taps, couldn't pee, held my hands under the running water, couldn't pee, now i had been peeing at least once an hour, but in the hour and a half i had to take a pee i couldn't go. By this time it was too late to drop it off as they need it before 10am so i had to do it this morning, i got up and made sure i had enough pee stored for this sample. I put the sticker on it and filled in the time and date and dropped it off, they girl behind the counter found it funny as i just couldn't go yesterday, lol. So now we wait. When i rang last week they said the results would be back within a few days but yesterday they said it could take a week!!!! How will we cope that long!!!!!!! We are expecting it to be positive but if it does turn out that i just had a dodgy test and im not then i must just be ill. I don't think i am ill though. 

        We have had conversations about what we are going to do space wise in the bedroom and me going back to work after maternity leave that sort of thing but the most exciting thing so far is we discussed names. Last night we thought about it and all the time Adam told me i need to keep the faith and it will happen so if we have a girl she will be called Faith Parker, if we have a little boy he will be Jackson Parker. It may come to the point where were find something that is so much better than this but i think these are really cute. Any ways i am getting ahead of myself really. We do have to wait until we get the confirmation from the doctor so that i can inform work. If the doctors do go by my last period date i may get my first scan by Christmas, what a great Christmas present that would be for us and to tell our families. I'm so excited.