i wish....

This is something i never thought i would write but i wish my period would hurry up and come already.

I dont mean tk sound negative but i havnt got my hopes up that this is a magical month or anything. I have learned my lesson over the past 3 years not to torture myself like that but i know its coming as it does every month but this time has decided to make me have the worst build up ever.

Bloating is all over the place one minute i can fit in my skinny jeans the next i can barely fit in my loose ones then back to my skinny ones again. My emotions are all over the place too i even got choked up over crufts....CRUFTS of all things. Then there is the constant fear of losing my lunch even tho i havnt been sick i have had that little bit that comes up just to taste then goes back down buy haunts you for hours later with its persistant burning. When will it all end. I know many people would tell me 'maybe you should take a test' 'sounds to me like you are pregnant' i remember those feelings too' well im sorry to be so negative but if i did do a test and it said negative i would probably make the symptoms worse but if it said positive it would probably turn out that i am one of those people who has a dudu test and it is really a negative but thought it would show the line just to give me a heart attack.

Ok rant over as i am at work....