Life on hold

I don't know how much of my life is on hold just yet but our wedding is on hold. There are some things going on at the moment that we are having to re think. I wen tot he doctors to be weighed and i have my bmi under 30 but not long after i broke down, i have no idea how i have coped in the past year or so, with the infertility then the wedding as well as everyday life and problems at work i feel like i have to be wonder woman sometimes, but i just don't have the super powers to do it all, so we had a long talk and we decided we have to take a few steps back, we are only 23/24 and we shouldn't have to deal with all of this right now especially all at once. I always thought i had to start growing up but i think i have over done myself, we made that hard decision to cancel the wedding but for how long we don't know, all we do know is we are going to lose our deposits we have already paid. Also i am not sure where we are on the IVF. I don't know when we are going to look back and decided to go ahead but we both feel if we don't sort out our lives right now and just take a step out of the hectic live then we would drive each other away, i am hoping that all this time and money that we will be saving may bring us closer, only time will tell.

I will keep you up to date with what we decide.