My request sounds a little weird right????? Let me explain.
First off infertility sucks!!!!!!
Now the reason behind me wanting a chair is at work they have this pregnancy chair its a comfy office chair with wheels and arm rests, well yesterday there was nobody using said chair therefore when my mom got to her work station and the chair was there she used it as everyone else has done since the last pregnant girl left. Then as she comes back from getting some handles she needed this girl had taken her things off the chair and was starting to walk away with itsaying she was pregnant. Fair enough but what gives her the right to move peoples belongings without asking or them being there???? Well as you can guess my mom was not best pleased. She shuved the chair the girl had replaced it with and the girl asked what her problem was. Well as anybody would she give her bit. Then she got told not to swear at her because she was pregnant. Im sorry but last thing i heard nobody had suffered a misscarriage from being swore at. Well then she had this chair and while i am at my moms area i see her carrying a heavy box!!!! If she is pregnant enough for a special chair then she shouldnt be carrying this box. She wasnt 'pregnant' yesterday as she was on a normal chair so i am presuming she found out today so i doubt she is very far along so why does that worrent special treatment??????
You are probably thinking here is just another infertile who is jealous right???? In part yes bet to make it irritate me more is she is a forener who knows that now she has been taken on they cant get rid of her and she get maternity pay and leave thats the same thing that the last girl did. It is getting to me so much that they are like a day pregnant and they can announce it with a chair but i am here with aunt flow who turned up this morning and i want a chair to say;
"yes i am infertile"
"yes i am sat on this special chair"
"and yes if you piss me of with your babble about being a week pregnant i cannot be held responcible for my actions"
It doesnt normally bother me but if i am down and upset i cant cry at work because people will ask why. What am i supposed to say "im upsey because i am sick of these people who only have to talk or think about getting pregnant and it happens and here i am a sad old infertile who cant take it" we are looked at like its nothing but its not nothing it cuts so deep and i just want my chair and my right to get up and shout to the next person to say "yea but im pregnant" to beable to turn around and say "congratulations for being so normal and so awesome and amazing while i sit here with my ovaries in perminant hibernation, thank you for making me one step closer to taking my anger out on someone. Feel free to offer your face to meet my hand any time." But no us infertiles have to sit like nice little freaks and be quiet the biggest taboo ever.
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