I have officially finished CBT, i have a follow up appointment at the end of the month and i actually feel like i can cope by myself. If someone had told me at Christmas that in the near future i will be able to control my anxiety the way i can i would have laughed in their face. I was concerned that it would take more than a bit of therapy to sort me out but i was proven wrong and im glad i was.
Now for a bit of a moan. I have always had a problem with my dad. In the politest way possible he is a twat. He is lazy, annoying and since i have moved home he has made me feel so uncomfortable. Like i am a burden. I understand when your kids are all grown you may want your house to yourself but my mom saw i was in need when i was made homeless while pregnant and knew the best place for me was at home. I pay my way, i help out and my mom loves having Charlotte here. My dad on the other hand has done everything possible to wind me up. He walks around and expects us to work around him even when i am doing the dishes if he wants to use the sink or have something off the drainer i am expected to move. If Charlotte is in the way she has to move. There has been a few times i have wanted to move out. I would still want to see my mom almost every day but i cant stand living here any more. I am still in college so not really in the position to leave just yet.
On the plus side i went for an interview yesterday and lets just say anxiety was pretty high on my name. I tried my best and by 3pm i had a phone call to say i was successful!!!! I was so pleased with myself. I didnt think i would get it because i was so nervous and i had admitted what had happened at work and the fact i had cbt but the interviewers said they were very pleased i was honest about the work situation and that i had therapy to help me in the situations which could help me understand some of the residents. It will be working as a residential care worker with children/teenagers. I have a trial next friday.
Well i have finally got it all out i can go back to listening to an adult snearing and annoying my child. Might top it off with a nice cold cider and some ice cream.
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