YOU WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!

I had my appointment today and at first we were quite good, we ran through what will happen next while the nurse had rang for the SA results, we were told that they would give me 100mgs of clomid and take the progesterone tests to see if it works if not the up it to 150mgs then i would be put on them for 6 months if it shows i was ovulating, well the nurse comes back and there is some not so good news, the SA results are not good, the MR's little men don't have any where near enough live in the sample, then there wasn't enough mobility and of the mobile ones they were not strong enough so we were told that even if i did ovulate from the clomid then i still may not get pregnant and he also said that IUI was not really an option as this was still a low chance to success. So he said he would refer us for IVF, i was shocked, i knew this could have been an option but i didn't realise that it would be our only option, i know that a baby is one of the biggest 'wants' in my life and i would give anything to have a baby so i know i have to go through this but really!! I'm 23, the MR is also 23 we shouldn't be going through this, we are fully healthy and fit we don't smoke or drink we are not obese i just don't see why we are being tested. I am only going to get 1 free try on the NHS so if this doesn't work then i have to find out how i am going to afford the £5000 to pay for more tries. This first round as it is on the NHS we should only need to pay for the prescriptions which by looking on google that this can come to about £40 so its not too bad but when i go private the prices can reach £2000 but asda were supposed to be doing them on the cheap on a non-profit scheme where we pay what they pay which is around £1100 but that wont bee for a while. When i was looking for information on IVF on the NHS i found that the NHS try to work on the 18 week wait where they hope to have your treatment started 18 weeks after the initial referral so this could mean by the end of February we could have started the process. well its quite late so i will leave but when i get my head round all this i will let you know.